Random people… random thoughts
I have a friend from high school who I lost touch with for along time but now we’re emailing back and forth. She’s kind of interesting. She travels a lot with her husband. She’s half Japanese and he’s European. There’s something kind of strange about her. I do sort of like her though. She’s like how I think of “typical” Japanese people. Very competitive and concerned with outward appearances. Yet, she has a way of being very honest in a way that most people aren’t. And we talk about things that wouldn’t normally come up in conversation. She’s almost like a little kid in some ways, yet very experienced in other ways. I guess she was always sort of like that… very very naïve. Yet well heeled… I feel like all of our emails are “Have you been to Paris ? “ No, never Paris, though I love London . “Oh I was in St. Petersburg recently and then went scuba diving in Tortuga .” It’s kind of exhausting. Especially for a country bumpkin like me. : ) I don’t know why I even bother playing the game really. I should just tell her, “Look, I’m just a hick!”
It seems like some people get completely lost in their own little lives… kids and jobs and the 20 mile radius around “home.” And others are off everywhere and seem completely unfocused. I guess it’s human nature to think that you have it all figured out and all of your friends are completely hopeless! Though it’s also eye opening to realize that they’re thinking the same exact thing about you. But that’s why we’re living the lives we’re living,… because we’re doing what has meaning for ourselves. I guess for me, I just want to pursue my own interests in my own little quiet way. I don’t really have grand plans. I’d like to publish a book. I’d like to be a great piano player and a songwriter. Mostly though I just want to express what’s inside and get as much joy out of life as I can. Laugh, have fun, be calm, be insightful and learn as much as I can… not just from the external world, but about my own psyche too. Meet interesting people, have some experiences. I don’t think there’s a big secret to it all. I’m not driven. Of course I do get a lot more laid back in the summer…. Goals?? What are those?? I just want to dig in the dirt and play with the pretty flowers.
