Inevitability
It’s something about cycles, inevitability, regression, freedom. Maybe it’s something to with asserting my independence by giving in to something other and letting myself be compliant. Which seems like a contradiction. The need to separate. I had a botany professor once who used the phrase “getting away from mother” to describe the way seeds are carried to new places – a way to survive because all the plants wouldn’t stay in one place and be crowded out (or wiped out). Survival by separation. Teenage rebellion…midlife crisis…are they so different? They’re both about asserting/reasserting who you are and the fact that you have the right to make your own decisions, go where you want to go, do what you want to do.
Yeah, that’s sort of what I’m getting at… I’m struck more and more by the inevitability of life. I don’t know if it’s evolution, dna, hormones, fate, or destiny. How can anyone be rational with all of those forces acting on you?
