Thanks for the fish

about how fat I’ve gotten. Last summer I dropped a ton of weight all of a sudden..looked up the date, and it was June 16. Which is depressing because I was hoping it would miraculously repeat itself. Nothing fits and it’s really depressing. Ran up and down the driveway twice and almost died. I know all I need to do is to pare down my eating for 2 months and I’ll be fine. Why is this so hard. It’s just hard to get motivated when you feel like a big fat cow. And I have to go to virginia in 2 weeks and face my mother,who will no doubt make some passive aggressive comment about it. : ( Oh well… I’ve been doing weight training for 4 weeks. If I can add a little bit of aerobic exericse and a lot of portion control, I”ll be fine. You have no idea how tempting it is to start smoking again just to lose weight. That sounds so appealing right now. hmm… The only downside is a nagging husband. And the fact that I’ll try to quit in a month and will have to go through that all over again. Probably not worth it.

Drove by the house in manchester for my dad. I gave it a thumbs down. Didn’t actually see it, but given the fact that I turned around before I got to the house due to the fact that I might get shot… I didn’t see that as a good sign. There are some really nice houses in that town though. Some people with money, which I didn’t expect. Some pretty spots. They thought their house in MN was going to sell, but now it looks like it might not. My mom’s nanny gig continues. Poor thing.

Worked on a new sign for the house. I bought a white ceramic round sign and painted the number on it in blue. Tried to stop at that, but I couldn’t. So I painted little pink and yellow flowers all over it too. : ) Classy and sophisticated as always. Harvested 2 heads of lettuce. 2 tomatoes are on the supersteaks… none on the early girls oddly enough. 

Beautiful day. Didn’t work outside or do much of anything. Didn’t sleep well at all last night. Had a Mike’s hard cranberry and fell asleep on the couch. That stuff is better than benadryl for knocking me out. Need to plan my San Francisco trip. I had a nightmare awhile ago that we were there and had hotels. Don’t want that to happen.