I’m going to pout today and you can’t stop me
This time of year brings some intense feelings for me. I talked about fall before. But it also relates to specific incidents that I associate with this time of year. Maybe this year will be the grand finale and then I’ll truly move on. Do we all have something like this? I think we probably do. And when I learn about other people’s, I find it so sad. But what would life be without them? I try to let go. I almost let go. But I don’t really want to. It gives me something to be sad about sometimes, and I guess sometimes I just want to feel sad. Better than feeling sad without a reason. Now, that’s just depressing. At least when there’s a reason, you have something to cling on to.
I’m too busy lately. I want to lay around and chain smoke and day dream and be by myself. I want to wrap myself in a blanket, lay on my bed, be warm and stare at the ceiling. I could really sit still for hours and just be content. But alas, there is work, and dinners, and air shows, and concerts, and networking events, and lunches, and lessons, and vacations. Vacations that will inevitably lead me to think of things that make me sad.
