So totally out..
of the zone. I’m eating, I’m drinking, I’m smoking… Can I blame PMS? Weight is being gained back, lungs are being blackened, livers (ok, just one liver) is being … something. It’s this damn weather! I need to move to Tahiti. I always thought I’d end up in some sun drenched land of laziness and cocktails… lord oh lord, what went wrong?? Maine?? Whyyyyyyyyy mmmmeeeeeee???? But you know I love the whole extreme thing. It’s perfect for my personality.
One thing about smoking is that it makes me much more confident. Not the nicotine, just the act of smoking. I feel like a bad ass and then I don’t let people screw with me. Yes, it’s just psychological, but I need all the balls I can get right now. I’m tired of being timid. And I have some high stress things coming up. I started on my presentation. I can’t get in touch with this stupid lady who refuses to call me back at a normal hour. She leaves a message at my house at 5 and asks me to call her cell phone. Lady… ?? I’m not calling you during cocktail hour… ? Just call me back from 8 to 5 like a normal person.
Then I’m stressed about going to boston. between my hotel, the bus depot, and the conference, I basically have to traverse the entire city several times. I’ve decided to take the bus, after much deliberation, and take the subway (or walk) everywhere. It’s not that I’m afraid of city driving (that’s one thing I’m actually not scared of), it’s just that parking would be just as inconvenient as taking the bus, so I might as well not deal with traffic. But I’ve got my T map printed out with all the stops I’ll be taking marked in a nifty red marker. I’m prepared to put on my city face! Go team! (It takes an internal pep talk to get me out of the house lately).
Got my books from the Writers Digest book club today. : ) I got “Hooked: Write fiction that grabs readers at page one and never lets them go,” “Writer’s guide to character traits,” “2008 Writer’s Market,” “The Writer’s Digest Grammar Desk Reference.” Sweet. Oh! I guess I should work on my book today. Wrote 800 words yesterday. My unofficial goal was 600-1000 per day. I really should try to stick with that.
Oh… I was preparing my presentation, and I just want to share, one more time, how much money I’ve saved by using Compact Florescent Bulbs. Big bucks! Time for the Office! Just thought I lost this post… luckily for you, I didn’t!
