Thanks for the fish

today. How lovely. Now it’s snowing and I’m sitting in the dark watching it come down. It’s rather peaceful. The cool thing about snow is that it’s silent. Rain is nice and something the sound of it is soothing, but there’s something about watching snow fluttering down with no sound at all. There’s a red squirrel out there, he’s been there all day. He must have broken into the birdfeeder again. I should go fill that up but it’s sooooo cold out there.

I’ve been working on my song - shooting stars in a dark field - it’s so neat! I’ve learned so much since taking piano lesson. I wrote the song in the key of F and just by pure intuition I put all the right chords in, inluding a b flat chord… i know! Fancy schmancy! I’m going to play it for my teacher tonight and see what she thinks. What else? I did part of the New York City Ballet workout today. It’s kind of cool… nothing too bouncy, which is good. Good ab workout and good stretches, plus nice classical music. The problem is that my ass is so big at this juncture that no matter how toned it was, it wouldn’t really matter. I should really do something about that (other than freak out and feel bad about myself, which I refuse to do).

I rearranged my guest bedroom today to make room for my work-from-home office. It’s just so nice and sunny up there and there’s a good view of the pond. It’s very peaceful. So I moved the bed over and put the desk so it faces the pond. Yeah, I can deal with an office like that. I even have a zen waterfountain. : ) Now I just need to buy a laptop and have J hook me up with wireless internet. And get a new phone and some filing cabinets. Then I’ll be all set.

Making progress in the Power of Now. It’s interseting. I see what he’s getting at. We spend so much time thinking about the past and future that we’re never really paying much attention to the present. So I’ve tried to do that more today. I do think excessively about everything except what is happening right now.

Well, I guess I’ll get all bundled up and go out and get groceries and on to my lesson. Oh! I saw a fox this morning. Big sucker! snooping around the house. I love foxes. What does my book say? (love this book)

“Every day holds within its core infinite potential for change. Every day brings new opportunities, if only we are aware enough to see them and brave enough to take them. Fox’s wisdom is that luck is simply the ability to see a break and take it. Once you start being purposefully conscious and alert to what is happening in the world around you and feel the interconnectedness of life, not only will you begin to see the inevitable outcomes to certain situations, but you will begin to instinctively know when an invitation is an opportunity. Fox counsels that you take it.” hmm… intriguing. that fits.

Last night I dreamt that me and J were squatting at the house of a guy I used to work with. Then it occurred to me that they might come home early and I freaked out and told J that we had to get out of there. We had shit everywhere…piles and piles of shit that we threw into giant trashbags, like clothes and stuff. The place was a total disaster. Then I think I saw them (him and his wife) pulling into the driveway and I realized that I had used his laptop and I wanted to clear the history but J said we didn’t have time and slammed it closed. I was freaked out that he’d know it was me, but in the end I let it go.

The sort of weird thing (or else I’m just totally reading too much into things) is that another person I know, who I’ve had some weird things happen with lately - I just found out this morning that they were house sitting. Yeah, I guess I’m reaching on that one.

Twas J’s birthday, which meant 2 hours of all in-laws, all the time. But it was a good excuse to eat cheese and crackers, drink cocktails, and eat ice cream cake. So it wasn’t all bad. December seems to be going by at a snail’s pace, which seems weird. But in a week and a half we’ll be making the 600 mile trek down to virginia. The first time we’ve driven down there since we moved. I guess it will kind of suck. But I don’t feel like flying.

Me and my friend at work ordered the New York City Ballet workout DVD. It came with 2 so we each took one home, though I don’t think I’ll do it tonight. I had such a productive night last night, which fate has deemed not to repeat. Damn this boring. Sorry folks, I got nothing! I could tell you what I had for lunch?