Taming my inner…
Rainy day today, so my plants are still not planted. Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous.. .perfect! We went kayaking literally all day. I slept in, then we got out there by noon. Put in at a new place that’s closer to the bay. Then just tootled around for awhile and then headed for the little island (rock) that we went to last time. It was one of those things where we kept paddling and paddling and paddling (for 2 hours) and the island just didn’t seem to be getting any closer. Then we got to it and I realized that wasn’t the right island at all. Of course J was like “yeah, I know, it’s that island over there” and pointed to an island even FURTHER away. So we kept paddling and finally got there. Thank god nobody was already on it or my inner brat would’ve really come out. Then we spent 2 and a half hours laying on rocks in the sun, reading, writing my book in my head, and looking for sea glass. Then we paddled back and since it was low tide, we had to crawl out in the mud and lug the boats back up the slope.
I love kayaking.. .it’s so meditative. It’s tiring, for sure, but when J’s way ahead of me and I’m just paddling away or drifting and looking at the sun reflecting on the water…it’s just so relaxing. I’d liek to get a smaller digital camera so I can take some pictures out there. Oh, and there were lots of birds…eagles, osprey, seagulls (everyone acts like they dont’ count..they’re like the weeds of the sky.. but I think they’re lovely).
Today I dug out some paint that my sister gave me about 15 years ago. There were some oil paints and oil pastels. I also dug out a book I have about painting, since I don’t know how. But I’m feeling the painterly urge. So I painted a picture of my cat G, our fluffly little black guy… it looks like a kindergartener did it. : ) But whatever.. I’d like to sign up for a painting class but cant’ find one near me. So I’ll keep fiddling around.
What else? Drinking: It’s been 8 days dry and I keep waiting for the day when I don’t think to myself “boy a cocktail (glass of wine, beer, etc.) woudl be nice right now.” So I’m glad I made my goal 30 days, so I can see if that makes a difference. I mean, it’s not like I’m going into DTs or anything or feeling massive urges.. I just sort of feel like it would make my day slightly better.
Working on my book a bit. Downloaded a demo of Final Draft - a software program mostly for screenwriting, but you cna use it for other things too. I don’t really see much of use, but i’m playing around with it. Also got some index cards out to see if I can make a story last all the way through to the end… I’m great at beginnings, but get a bit lost from there…
Work absolutely sucks in every way. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it! Does that sound bratty? I don’t wanna go…I don’t WANNA!
