Thanks for the fish

an arc. The rain is incessant, and it’s not just regular rain. This is pouring, torrential, tropical, tornadic rain that hasn’t stopped for about a week. After half a bottle of red wine, I passed out at 9 and then woke up 2 am in a slight panic attack. Then laid there and listened to the rain, and the thunder, and watched the lightening. Finally went down and pooped around online, then more laying in bed till the sun came up, at which time I went to sleep. Why can I never fall back asleep till the sun comes up? I’m deliriously tired now and intelligently finishing off the red wine so I can relive the whole experience tonight! Yeah… some evolutionary genes I just did not get.

We had a mini-department outing this afternoon and went to see Mamma Mia! I’d actually seen the show years ago when I lived in DC and it was cute, though I actually think I like the movie better. It was really good. There’s some slight tension on the department. I hate to say it, but I’ve sort of been ganging up on a coworker with another coworker. I don’t approve of my own behavior. But I have to admit that for once it’s nice to be on the giving end rather than the receiving end of a big ol’ snubfest. But I know how karma works so I need to cut it out. Plus, it’s just mean.

Man, oh man… what can I say. Maybe I’m just tired but I’m starting to think that I need a major change in my life. I love my life. I’m happier than ever, but I just have nowhere left to grow. Am I supposed to be doing this and only this for the rest of my life? That thought scares the shit out of me. I just dont’ think I can do it. I think I may need to go out and buy a fire engine red mini cooper. I’m too young and childless to be driving around in a station wagon. Why yes, I AM having a mid-life crisis.