Thanks for the fish

since I hate to complain about my health here (do I?) I probably won’t have much to talk about. I’m feeling rough and I’m a horrible sick person. I’m self-diagnosing and self-treating so hopefully I’m doing it correctly and will be back to feeling good by the end of the long weekend. In the meantime, I guess it’s not so bad being laid-up. I just finished an excellent book called “excellent women” by Barbara Pym. My mom found it somewhere and loved it, then my dad read it and loved it. Then I read and loved it. It’s the first book I’ve read all summer that I’ve really loved. I wonder how that happens.It was just a very comfortable book…like an old friend. How’s that for a cliche.

Sooo… what do we think about this VP pick? Oh aren’t the democrats mad?! I sort of snicker smugly to myself because as much as I will never vote for John McCain and as much as it pains me to see a bright woman who doesn’t support women’s reproductive rights, I still love to see a woman (who is not a wife) be standing up there with him. I have to admit that Hillary losing was a blow to me. I would love to see a black man be president and I’d love to see a woman be president, and I never thought I would see it in my lifetime (guess I still might not, but worst case scenario I will at least see a woman vp), but it seems a shame that one had to knock the other out. I guses I’m a little depressed about it when I think about it, but in my current state (sitting here in my bathrobe and feeling absolutely pathetic) I’m pretty much depressed about everything. Not in the mental health definition of the word…just feeling a little bit like things could have worked out a bit better. But didnt’.

I don’t think I slept at all last night. But to make myself feel a little better, I did stick to my plan today of having: no more than 4 cigarettes, no more than 1 diet coke, and no more 1 alcoholic beverage. In fact, I had no alcoholic beverage, mostly because I had nothing at home except the bourbon, and that really calls for a desperate situation more desperate than the current one. I tried to get the hubby to go out to the local gas station quicky mart for red wine and ben & jerry’s, and for a minute I thought he would actually do it (that shows how pathetic I really must seem). And I think he even really would have done it if I had pressed him to.

I brought work home to do this weekend. I’ve actually reached the point of feeling stressed out just thinking about work. Usually I can leave it at work. So I won’t think about it right now. Good plan, and good night.