TGIF
First of all, he’s a writer (like me, yay!) so he gets me. Second, he’s funny, he’s laid back, he uses foul language, he’s a wannabe hippie, he doesn’t watch tv, he drinks unpasteurized milk, he has chickens…in other words, he is my male twin. I love him. Not like “i’m in love with him,” but like “he’s just like me and that’s wicked cool.”
I had a very honest, direct one-on-one with him today and I just told him flat out where I’m frustrated and who is getting on my nerves. There are two distinct camps in my department. There’s me and my friend D, who are very black & white, task oriented, deadline driven people. Then there are the two flakes, who may be very pleasant people but make our lives miserable. I can’t help but think that my new boss is in our camp. Thank god. The “P” word was brought up (process), which I am a BIG fan of, and I think that will solve a lot of our department problems. Oh, he also said I was a good writer. Comgin from my boss and a fellow writer, that more than made up for the demoralizing events of the past week. What can I say? I’m freaking easy!
I spent $50 at Whole Foods today. Back to my old ways. I bought a bottle of organic red wine for tonight. Then I bought a pair of $30 leather footies for my friend’s new baby. Some corn chowder and an avocado sandwich for lunch… guess that was it. They had some great hand made soaps too. And nice scarves… I alsmost went a little bonkers on my Xmas shopping. I need to buy stamps tomorrow and finish my Xmas cards. Oh… I’ve decided to become an Atheist. Do you think it’s still ok to celebrate Xmas? I hope so.I do like it… the tree, the decorations, the gift giving. I don’t even mind that whole Jesus fairy tale, as long as you dont’ take it too literally. We all need our myths after all.
Ok… I wasn’t going to go into this becasue I know peopel are offended by it, but eff it. So I wasn’t raised religious AT ALL. My mother was raised somewhat Catholic (her mother was half Irish and Catholic). My mom went to Catholic girl’s school. My dad’s family I think was Lutheran. I went to Sunday School a few times as a child and church a few times with friends, but my family never, ever went to church together. My mother sometmies would go to an Episcopalian service when i was growing up. Anyway, by osmosis growing up in modern american society, I picked up some stuff. Sex is bad, your bodily urges are evil, if you dont’ believe in god/jesus you will get struck by lightning and go to hell, etc. etc. All this, being a feminist and not being raised religious! It was just recently that I’ve really let go of it all.. J’s been on a learning kick about religion and it’s all very scholarly and has put it into perspective. I totally believe in the Great Mystery. Why are we here where did we come from what’s it all about? Yeah.. I get that. But I’m done with this sexist masochistic religion called Christianity. I’m done. And let me tell you.. finally letting go has made me less afraid of life,less afraid of death, and just generally more accepting of other people. Weird! I hope that doesn’t offend anyone. I respect people’s faith, but I cant’ help believe that religion causes more harm than good.
Making applesuace and thinking about making bread and maybe burger rolls. I’m feeling very domestic, but am basically too tired to act on it. I’ll be in bed before 9.
