Thanks for the fish

and I’m grumpy as effing hell. What I WANT to do here is list all the shitty things that have either happened, I’ve imagined, or felt all day, but since I keep track of my goals on Joe’s goals (joesgoals.com) and I have “gratitude” as one of my daily goals, instead I will do my utmost to think of 5 things that went right today. This may take a while though, so your patience is appreciated.

1. Ok….. um…. well when the hair dryers at the gym (all SEVEN of them) did NOT work and I had to leave with sopping wet hair, at least it was a warm night (54!) so I didn’t freeze my ass off.
2. I stocked up on a giant bottle of Smirnoff at the grocery store and enjoyed a cosmo tonight.
3. I got to leave work at 4:30 since I got there at 7:30 this morning.
4. The day went by fast.
5. I found a bunch of great books to read that I did not even know I had! Including: Mrs. Dalloway, Herzog, Cat’s Eye (Margaret Atwood), and an interesting looking one about labyrinths.
6. Well, shit, I’m on a roll now: I’ve gotten most of my high priortiy Xmas cards in the mail (though I do still need to get some stamps to mail a few of them) and I even wrote personal notes in all of them rather than my usual “Merry Christmas.”
7. I continue to work out 3 days a week even though I haven’t lost a single pound. I’m sure my heart and lungs appreciate it.
8. Most of the ice melted today from our giant ice storm and most importantly WE HAVE POWER AND INTERNET.
9. I feel like I should make it to 10 so 2 more. I’ll have some time off next week even though it may not be super relaxing.
10. J keeps buying books that I want to read too… saving me money on buying them myself, including “On Writing” by stephen king. (Now J wants to be a writer [eyes rolling])

Ok, that felt pretty good but I have to admit I’m still grumpy and in quite a pissed off/self pitying state. I really just want to embrace the feeling for a while. I may try to get out of it tomorrow. But not tonight. A little misery is sort of fun every now and then and I goddamn deserve it. I’m going to sit in my chair, by the fire, and pretend to read while I secretly daydream and probably fall asleep. Night night.