No idea…
what I’m doing or why I’m doing it. I am truly the queen of following her nose. Or other parts of her body.
Soo… scandal! I had lunch (again) with a handsome older guy who I just happened to have been insanely in love with at a certain time in my life. Why am I doing this? Let’s see…. I’m bored and need a little excitement in my life and sometimes I feel so damn numb that I wonder if I really am still living? Or, I just need a friend or someone to talk to, especially since he is also a writer and does actually give me some good writerly tips. Or, I’m secretly not happy with my life and just feel like ruining it all. Or, I’m looking for material for my book. Or, I’m really still in love with him even though he’s practically old enough to be my father.
Hmm. That didnt’ help clear it up for me. So, my tendency is to ignore the whole thing for a while. Chances are he will never email me again anyway and then I can go over the whole grieving process of realizing he doesn’t give 2 shits about me once again. Fun! Oh stupid stupid stupid girl!
